You know how you have those bad days? The ones where all of
your good eating and exercising intentions go out the window, and you just wish
that you could start again? Well, I just had one of those days… times 7… ok it
was one of those weeks.
Yep, Week 4 was a bit of a blow out. Now I still avoided the
sugar – no treats, no chocolate or cake, no fruit, no honey… I really am happy
with that - one month down! But… everything else I ate was pretty much
disastrous, and I didn’t fit in ANY exercise until yesterday. So apart from
putting 2 of the 3 kilos I had lost back
on (DAMMIT!) I felt bloated, full, fat and grumpy all week (all of which had been
happily avoided during this detox).
The fact that it was the School Production week and I am one
of the drama teachers definitely contributed to this tornado of fried food and
white bread (yup – it was bad).
Problem Number One: I was at the theatre all day Saturday
and Sunday of last week, so lost my usual food prep days.
Lesson Learned: To eat well I MUST BE PREPARED!!
Problem Number Two: I had to work from 8am-4pm and then head
straight to the theatre from 4pm-11pm each night for the whole week. I was
tired and stressed putting in these 15-hour days for 5 days.
Lesson Learned: My emotions are still controlling my eating
habits; I need to get a good night’s rest to find the strength that is needed
to stay on track. And this week was just stupidly ridiculous, and should never
be repeated.
Each night at the theatre I ate what the cast and crew ate: fish and chips, party pies and cheese and bacon rolls. (A favourite of ours was
potato cakes with chicken salt). Brekkie was something I could pick up on the
run to work, usually cheesymite scrolls from Bakers Delight and a super strong
soy latte. And lunch, if I had time to eat, was something I could grab and
stuff my face with from the school canteen; hot chips, wedges or maybe a greasy
chicken roll. Not to mention the corn chips, salted peanuts and savoys I
snacked on while the kids were on stage. YIKES! Even writing this all down has
me shaking my head in astonishment. I knew it was bad, but I was so tired that I just didn't care.
It was funny, amongst all of this obsessive eating of crap,
I still managed to keep myself away from refined sugar. I’d be halfway through a giant packed
of Doritos (maybe three-quarters), but when offered some sweet chilli philly to
go with it I found myself replying with, “oh no, I don’t do sugar anymore”. I’d be met with a strange look as I would shove my hand back into the packet and finish off another handful of
those delicious salty devils. Hmmm ironic? The weird thing - I didn’t even
crave sugar, it was salt. And carbs. And white bread. And all the stuff that
makes me blow up and get podgy.
It had me getting worried: am I replacing my sugar habit
with a junk food habit? I was eating these things that I knew I shouldn’t, sometimes obsessively, and
at the same time couldn’t stop. It was very confronting to have these feelings
rise up again, but probably something that was necessary. Even though an
extreme circumstance, I’m certainly not out of the woods yet.
So, I want to reverse this week and pretend that it never
happened. Get my old headspace back, get my flat(ter) stomach back, give back
the 2 extra kilos that stuck straight back onto my belly. But… that can’t
happen. So I’ve decided I’m going to re-do week 4 instead. I don’t like what I
became this week, who I became, and I don’t like what I was putting into my
body. So I figure, my 8-week detox will become a 9-week detox. This makes me
feel much better, and like I can move on from this mountain of salty regret.
Some things that I’ve done this weekend to help my new (and
hopefully improved) repeat of week 4:
- I booked in with a
personal trainer at the gym.
He has a 6-week challenge going on, so I thought PERFECT!!
I’m paid, signed up, measured and weighed-in, and ready to roll through the
program. I found out that my metabolic age is 36 and I have 33% body fat. For a
28 year old who was at 20% not that long ago, this completely floored me. And
motivated me. And angered me that I’d let it get this far. I want those figures
to change so badly! I want those 8 years back! And with the support of my
bad-ass ex-army trainer, I have a feeling I will be kept accountable. I'm pretty sure he modeled himself on "Commando" from The Biggest Loser and he scares the crap out of me - but it's probably just what I need.
- I have spent the
weekend preparing meals and food for the week.
This really is the key to my successful eating. I’ve written
out a food plan and cooked up meals and snacks that I can take to work. I’ve got tonnes of
par-cooked and frozen veggies, egg and bacon muffins (Sarah Wilson’s recipe), chilli turkey mince, chicken, tofu and steak in the fridge, and I’m stocked up on green-smoothie
ingredients (I really missed them last week!)
- I am going to be
super conscious of getting a good sleep and watching my stress levels.
It was amazing to see how quickly I crumbled to the easy,
unhealthy option when I was so exhausted. I know last week was extreme, but it
was still a shock to see my will-power muscle wither away once more. Time to
stay happy, energised and well rested (to the best of my ability when 25 Year 9
boys run rampant in the classroom).
So here we go… Week 4 take 2! One month without any sugar –
complete!
Don't worry too much about the week... The main thing is that you avoided the chocolate and candy. Just think - you were so tired and stressed but you didn't give in! Sure, the stuff you ate isn't ideal for weight loss, but at least you're staying away from the Tim tams! I'd still be happy with that!
ReplyDeleteHaha thanks! I haven't been near the Tim Tams yet, that could be the real test...
Deletei have just started reading your blog... im hooked & im feeling so ready to give this a crack!!!
ReplyDeleteGood on you, Lorey! Go for it, you won't regret it!
DeleteHaha, oh dear, I had to laugh. It's funny how we can avoid sugar and yet still find a way to be unhealthy, hey!? I'm pretty sure it was about Week 4 for me that I was eating half a kilogram of yogurt every day. And I started to put the 3kg that I lost back on as well! :(
ReplyDeleteI'll let you in on a little secret that may help you next time you are faced with Doritos.... THEY CONTAIN SUGAR. And so does white bread, and those party pies. They are full of crap, and there's always sugar involved where processed crap is!
But yep, you didn't cave into any sweet-tasting stuff which is still an achievement. You have SUCH a busy life, wow! I don't think anyone would have time to be healthy if their every week was like that one!
I'm now off read your "Take 2" of Week 4. You're still ROCKING this and have already beaten the sugar devil. Look how easy you say no to it now!
Thanks Hannah!
ReplyDeleteYup, I still had heaps of sugar but just not in its usual recognizable form. My God I felt awful! I don't want that to happen again. I've been trying to stick to just a few spoonfuls of natural yoghurt after dinner, and it's so tempting to take out and demolish the whole tub! But I am heeding your words of advice...
That week was absolutely insane... definitely not my usual weekly schedule! I don't know how those that are super busy manage to keep themselves on track, I lost all of my sanity and logical thought after just a few days of it. Crazy.
Thanks for your continual support Hannah, I do look forward to reading your comments!